Quick getaway

I feel lousy. Have you ever felt so overwhelmed by everything's that happening around you, all you can do is close your eyes and wait, but the feelings never disappear?

Driving through the highway today i realised there will always be things i have to search for and at the same time, things i have to let go of.

Don't really know why i feel so crappy, maybe cause this quick getaway gave me the time and space to reflect about some things in my life right now. The closer i get to being somewhere, the emptier i feel. Probably not in a bad way, but just......the lonelier i feel. More real. More intense, more lasting. Well this kmakes sense, since im such an idealist. The questions i ask are deeper, the answers i get less clearer.

I was singing alot on the drive back home, something like a badly scratched tape between tool's sober, Train's drops of jupiter and the moffatts' i miss you like crazy hahaha. Well it was from the radio. I haven't really sung in awhile, perhaps that's why ive felt so crappy. I've been stuck i think, on that creative part of myself. I think i'm not letting go of something. It's always the same situation, you have to get hurt and heal, hurt and heal, until you reach that happier place in your head that makes you a more comfortable soul amongst all the chaos that is life.

Well this is my first emo-writing-post mnyahah, i hope it gets a little better. I need to cut my friggin hair.